Walking Between the Raindrops

people that shouldn’t matter’s actions are making me sad :/.

its rather strange being entirely jaded and a hopeless romantic at the same time.

but that’s exactly what i am.

today has been the worst day in a whiiiiiile.

• spent the entire morning and afternoon (as well as last night) throwing up. It was horrible. I could barely breathe and it got so bad that I considered going to the hospital.
• sent an angry email to musician guy this morning while still fairly drunk, about how he’s hurt me so much. Got a response back that made me totally regret being such a bitch, as most of what he said was a fairly good excuse for the things hes recently done.
• got into a big fight with my future roommate who i havent even met yet, because shes being a selfish cunt.
• my mother called me to tell me im an embarrassment to her because i made a drunken status about having drank too much.

yep. fuck today.

my life for the past week has consisted of watching far too many episodes of How I Met Your Mother, One Tree Hill, attempting to beat mw3, watching a bunch of foreign films, and being heartbroken over that one musician i kind of sort of really liked :/.

I need some change. Desperately.

edit: also, i feel i should add ive recently been on two very successful dates with someone i never pictured myself dating. i just wish i could get the aforementioned jerk out of my mind. whatever.

I met a gilbert blythe (anne of green gables character) lookalike earlier this year. Today, he sent me a picture message of himself only wearing a straw hat and overalls.

ooof.